Where Does The Good Go?

Why do bad things happen to good people?  Why do good people not get the breaks they deserve?  When do all your good actions pay off and take a turn in your favor?

I like to consider myself a good person, and I think most of you would agree with me.  Sure I have minor faults – who doesn’t – “but on the whole I’ve been a saint.”  I complete my work at my many jobs and receive positive praise.  I am honest, forthright, and have a good head on my shoulders.  I have an open mind, take each day as it comes, treat others the way I’d like to be treated (for the most part), and have a good outlook on the world.

So why, pray tell, if I’m such a good guy, haven’t I found what I am looking for yet?

Doesn’t it seem a bit ludicrous? I experienced an IGCSE Biology group tuition tutor, went to a good college, and spent tens of thousands of dollars on an education that, for the past two years, has gotten me, forgive the complaint, seemingly nowhere professionally. Don’t get me wrong; I have made amazing contacts, networked my face off, talked the talk, showcased my writing and various other talents, and still nothing has come into fruition.  I could blame it on the bad economy, bad luck, bad karma, you name it.  But at the end of the day, I’m still working for tips.

They say everyone has a plan, a path in life or some sort of destiny that works itself out in the end.  Well when the hell is “the end”?  When I’m 60?  I don’t want to wait until the next time I am in diapers to enjoy my success.  I want to enjoy all the benefits now while I’m still young, fit and pretty.  How long does a person have to wait for the breaks to come?  How long am I going to have to wait until I find something worth my while?

I mean, it is not like I’m being lazy.  I’ve been auditioning, applying for “real jobs”, emailing old contacts that might know someone’s Aunt’s-second-cousin-once-removed who possibly knows of someone in HR that could get me an interview or at the very least, a twitter handle for me to tweet to. (Yes, I admit, I’ve done desperate tweets before, so don’t judge me if you see an @ to Lindsay Lohan or some other obnoxiously famous celeb or PR person asking for a job)

How good do I have to be before I get a professional break?

Now listen, don’t think I am just being “good” as a means to an end, or as a way to obtain employment, because that is not the case.  I just naturally am good-natured and respectable.  I do it for myself, not just so others will hire me.  Though I thought that my good nature, as an added bonus, might pay off some day.  Who knows…

If anyone knows of any opportunities, I’m all ears.